It's the lunar 7th month now though I didnt do wrong stuffs but I'm easily creep out as I seem to hear some noises that shouldnt be around. Lately so much things had happened and really didnt have the mood to do blogging. Wanted to change the blogskin but cant really find a suitable one that totally fits my style. Daddy and Lexus know the most of what's bothering me. They are the capable ones that will make me smile no matter how big the problem is but the smile wont last for long. I can smile now but not for later, tomorrow, in the future. Daddy came meet me then accompany me go play pool. It's one of my method to vent my anger as I could hit something with all my strength; anger improves my hand's strength. That's why, when sometime there's problem, I'll punch the wall, clench my fist to use the nails to poke my skin. Yesterday, I did something that made people that care about me, sad and disappointed. Apparently, I slit my wrist again which I promised alot people that I wouldnt do it again but really couldnt control the urge at all. I'm feeling better now as an unexpected guest message me today. I thought he was angry that I slit my wrist that doesnt want to talk to me. This afternoon, didnt want to talk to anybody till I took a nap, woke up and felt empty at heart again. Biscuit, talk half way then MIA again but is like nothing already. He's always like this but well, that's him being himself. MUGGING like forever in his life and same goes to Daddy. They got something in common, always slogging their life for studies and work. Daddy 24/7 working and working non-stop. How am I going to have a Mommy if he keep himself busy all the time? If he see this post, he'll definitely write "..." or "-.-" then he will have the smile on his face and think why I'm so smart and I'll say because I'm your daughter. Kay, enough of those nonsense. Having a dad like him is so fortunate cause he's always here for me. I know he's busy and I dont want disturb him but well, I think he's one of those rare people that would understand me. There's only one me in this world, im extinct! RANDOM ; I got reddish brown eyeball .

It's the lunar 7th month now though I didnt do wrong stuffs but I'm easily creep out as I seem to hear some noises that shouldnt be around. Lately so much things had happened and really didnt have the mood to do blogging. Wanted to change the blogskin but cant really find a suitable one that totally fits my style. Daddy and Lexus know the most of what's bothering me. They are the capable ones that will make me smile no matter how big the problem is but the smile wont last for long. I can smile now but not for later, tomorrow, in the future. Daddy came meet me then accompany me go play pool. It's one of my method to vent my anger as I could hit something with all my strength; anger improves my hand's strength. That's why, when sometime there's problem, I'll punch the wall, clench my fist to use the nails to poke my skin. Yesterday, I did something that made people that care about me, sad and disappointed. Apparently, I slit my wrist again which I promised alot people that I wouldnt do it again but really couldnt control the urge at all. I'm feeling better now as an unexpected guest message me today. I thought he was angry that I slit my wrist that doesnt want to talk to me. This afternoon, didnt want to talk to anybody till I took a nap, woke up and felt empty at heart again. Biscuit, talk half way then MIA again but is like nothing already. He's always like this but well, that's him being himself. MUGGING like forever in his life and same goes to Daddy. They got something in common, always slogging their life for studies and work. Daddy 24/7 working and working non-stop. How am I going to have a Mommy if he keep himself busy all the time? If he see this post, he'll definitely write "..." or "-.-" then he will have the smile on his face and think why I'm so smart and I'll say because I'm your daughter. Kay, enough of those nonsense. Having a dad like him is so fortunate cause he's always here for me. I know he's busy and I dont want disturb him but well, I think he's one of those rare people that would understand me. There's only one me in this world, im extinct! RANDOM ; I got reddish brown eyeball .