Emotion Daiie
Sunday, August 30, 2009 | 9:45 PM | 0 comments
Yesterday drinked the whole bottle of 'Breezers' Peach myself.It's alcohol is only around 5% so not very easy to get drunk but if drink very fast surely will get headach or anything.After drinking finish,I went to bed straight away since my eye suddenly feel so hot.Today nothing much to do...Keep watching DVDs then Big Bro's two friend came to our house then play wii.They play the Dance Dance Revolution very slow but still lose to nicholas,I think so.Then my mom,big brother and me went to eat Bak Kut Teh since I suddenly feel like eating it.We went down the streets then order the food.Don't know why today my appetite so good that I today actually finish the food.After that,we went to 2 shoe shop but none of them got what I expect for school shoe so I only bought a shoe for outing then went to disc shop then bought 5 DVDs in total.My mom wanted to buy some things so we follow her then my bro and I choose tibits that we want also then dont know what he took but I take Kinder Buenos got Milk and Chocolate flavour de.Bought 3 Milk 1 Chocolate.Chocolate is Big Brother's,1 Milk is for Second Brother and the rest is mine cause I bringing them to school tomorrow to share with my friends.I wonder what will happen to me tomorrow.Anyway,I'm going back to my primary school tomorrow but dont know anybody going with me from my school but my other school primary friends are going.All of a sudden,I felt so lonely lols...I'm not writing composition okay hehe...Anyway tomorrow going 1D's "restaurant" or maybe 1C's then going to buy things from the parents supporting group or the student councillor.I promise WenWen after that I go see her play captains ball.2B 2B must win tomorrow's Sports Carnival.2B is the best cause it means Too Best hahas...So nobody can beat us down cause we can be very very united sometimes..?An awful day
Thursday, August 27, 2009 | 7:43 PM | 0 comments
I saw him this morning in school.Looking so carefree and happy.I guess he has told the girl that he likes her and they have patch again.Sihui ask me whether he got reply my message anot and the answer is no.I just wanted to know the answer so I could stop guessing and lying to myself.Actually in the morning,I am abit sick.Having slight fever and my gastric problem is acting up again.My heart felt so pain when I saw him in the canteen after school.I really wanted to go infront and confront him but I got no courage.I'm too timid to do this.I feel like crying but what are the tears I'm shedding is for who?If it's for him,I've left with no tears for him.Today when go NPCC,I went for archery test and saw him.He didn't notice me as I was in 1A classroom doing my test then go down for practical.I wish to see him.I wish to be with him.I wish to talk to him.I wish..I wish..I really hope I can do it.When doing the practical,I got no mood and my fever since to have gone up higher.What can I do?I need to take my test so I cant go home.The stupid instructors and sirs keep wasting our time then make me cannot faster go out and meet Andre,Nicholas and Chenyan go bubbletea.If they never keep us so long,maybe I can see him at the bubbletea shop.I have really break down.Don't bother about me.I thought about committing suicide before but what the hell that's for?I'm just being silly if I do silly things just for that person.Go and die! Go and die! Go and die! Go and die! Go and die! Yes...You are the one that make me hate you so much so much but loves you more than hate.I really wish the hell that you could get out from my memory,my everything.Why do I sound so pathetic? I'm not pathetic but mentally sounds uncalm.I want everything to end here...Right now!What happen to me
Wednesday, August 26, 2009 | 6:15 PM | 0 comments
Today you message me and told me things that I do not wish to listen to..I really wish to forget you but I couldnt.What should I do?Today after school,I went for hairstyling and I actually told me that if before 6pm you havent message me,I will never ever care and reply to whatever you tell me..I didnt know that things would turn out this way.I shouldn't sink myself that deep and letting myself to get hurt...Sometime things are going against me but I believe that things will get better.I know that something is going to happen between both of us. So...❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY ❥ILY
I say ❥ILY is because I know Im going to lose you.I dont wish to lose you but sometimes,things will happen that is not following your prediction.I really hope we can be together but I know it's impossible.I wish you happiness and hope you and the girl that you like will be together forever.The tears that I shed is nothing to you.I just hope you will remember me forever and regard me as your friend. This is the last time I'm going to say this.I walked under the heavy rain and hoping that it would wash away all my thoughts and YOU but it didn't.I felt sick of doing those foolish thing just to forget you but in the end,I'm the one suffering for what I did.If I am sick and couldnt do anythinq,would you be there to care for me?Not just caring and be by my side?I'm really breaking down and I couldnt take it anymore!I hope I could forget you.Forget about the past.Forget the memories.I'm willing to say this for the last time;
Actual Shooting
Saturday, August 22, 2009 | 1:53 PM | 0 comments
Went to do revolver shooting today then was like so nervous and scared.*Flashback* Zhanke Sir say before that last time got one girl very scared then dont dare to shoot the target then aim the gun on the officer and say she dont dare lols..then kana taken to court. But this thing not going to happen on me(: Today get my SP Service 'PUB' Badge.Jinheng like got piss cause he didnt pass hahas!Then get our road safety badge and put both badges onto the uniform.On the bus,almost everybody fell asleep except 3 to 6 of us.When we start our actual shoot,we have another dry shoot again then take our target board and wait at the other room.There were other school's instructor inside to guide us then the mam beside me call me dont nervous lols.Wear the headset and goggle then put the bullets into the revolver and prepare.Then the gun recoil then shock me lols.After first shot then the gun jam already.Maybe I never put the bullet properly then after jam awhile then can shoot already.16 bullets shoot 9m away.I was like oh my god!I sure do something wrong one.After finish shooting,we sit down and wait for our Teacher Officer to come out.Then we saw got one target board all the bullets shoot at the middle point.Middle point is 5point each which is the highest.16x5=80 points.Wakao lo!This person next year surely very easy to get his/her marksman badge one.Must learn how to aim properly then next year pass my marksmanship!7th Lesson
Thursday, August 20, 2009 | 11:32 PM | 0 comments
Today is the 7th lesson of archery.The instructors so blur that they thought today is the last lesson then say got test.In the end,still do Olympic style shooting.Team 1 do campcraft den Team 2 do archery.After that,we swap and go do shooting.One of the instructor look like "F" and somemore the attitude same sucks but the Sir at least better lah...I think his name is spell as Mustafa as it's pronounce as like that.When we doing our shooting,Jerald call Me,Reuyfeng,Timothy and Chengtat to hold up the bow and pull the string then he take photo of us.Guess what he take the photo for.He take the photo and say want to put on Magazine! What The..Hell right?!Then the Mustafa go laugh at me then I get piss by him...He call me Channel lei!I feel like killing him sia...same attitude with the person.My hand got the bruise again...Damn pain sua.This week is more worse then the previous last 2 weeks and it almost bleed like that.Tomorrow got Actual Shooting then need to wear Full Uniform.Need to get prepare cause tomorrow taking real bullets.Later I very scared then drop all the bullets...HAHAS xD Next week is Archery Test and Hairstyling 'competition'.Must practice hard hard then can get achievement..Sec Two Assembly
Wednesday, August 19, 2009 | 6:30 PM | 0 comments
Today is the day that I get my Mount Kinabalu Certificate and I gave a talk;"Good Morning Principal,Mr Razali,teachers and fellow friend.I would like to share my experience in the Giant In Me Programme.
Teamwork,Respect,Discipline,Responsibility and Confidence are values the Giant programme had instilled in me.
I remember our first outdoor activity to the Snow City.I thought the objective was merely to have fun but during the debriefing,I realized that there was more to just having fun.I got to know my friends better,we built rapport and I could feel the team spirit within the 16 of us.
I must admit that the programme was not easy.Snow city was just a starter.After the 1st week,we had numerous trainings and they were tough mentally and physically.We had to run in twos and nobody was allowed to talk during the run.We had to face the consequences if we break any of the rules during the training.Despite the toughness,we managed to work as a team and pulled through all obstacles.The tough trainings have taught me self-discipline,respect,perseverance and a 'never-say-die' attitude.The training had also prepared me for the Mount Kinabalu expedition on 30 May 2009.
Apart from the training and outdoor activities,we underwent a life skill programme in DJ spin master.I had no confidence to spin the record initially but through several sessions,I started to gain confidence.The greatest challenge was to face the crowd in the canteen during the DJ Spin Master competition.I was scared and nervous.However,I managed to overcome my fear and spinned my way through.
The Giant programme not only improved my character,it helped me to realise the importance of doing well academically.I studies hard and was glad to see improvements in my semester 1 academic results.
On 30 May 2009,the day finally came for us to embark on an expedition to Mount Kinabalu,the highest mountain in South East Asia.I remember my first expression when I first saw Mount K,my "jaw dropped".I couldn't believe what I saw and I thought to myself that I won't be able to make it up.Before seeing the actual size of the mountain,I could only imagine that it is probably 2 to 3 times higher than Bukit Timah Hill.I was very wrong,it is about 30 times higher.I know I had to climb the mountain because the only lodging for the night was up there.I forced myself to think that I can make it and I eventually did.The climb continued the next day,which was even more challenging.We woke up at 1.30am and started climbing to the summit at 2.30am.I wasn't mentally prepared as I was extremely exhausted.In addition to the exhaustion was the strong wind and freezing temperature that went below 5 degree celsius.Fortunately,Mr Ben and Lin 'LouSi' motivated me by encouraging me to keep going and not to give up.I managed to climb until 3668m,which is 427m below the summit,before starting my decend.
The Mount Kinabalu expedition is really a test of my mental ability.I didn't believe that I could climb the tallest Mountain in South East Asia and that to me,was my greatest achievement in life,so far.
In conclusion,I definitely did not regret participating in the programme.My learning journey in the Giant programme has developed me into a stronger person as a whole.The programme had indeed increased my level of confidence and self-esteem.I now belief that if I work hard,nothing can stop me from achieving sucess in my life.With that,I thank you."
Moody Tuesday
Tuesday, August 18, 2009 | 5:55 PM | 0 comments
Today morning went to school then saw the first person is that idiot person then I knew that I'm gonna be unlucky for the whole day today.During assembly also see him and even during recess time also see him.I'm so damn damn unlucky to see him.WenWen preparing to plan a surprise birthday celebration to Dexter after school then sponser some money so they can go buy cake.After recess,English lesson first then half way during lesson I fall asleep hahas..When woke up,faster catch up with the others and copy the notes from friends.History nothing fun to talk so dunnid say hahas..Next is Math lesson.We did Excercise 8C then Mr Choo start playing some video of Photosynthesis and Mean Median Mode.The Mean Median Mode song so funny like the song that Michael Jackson's Moonwalk.Last time Mr Choo also play the Photosynthesis music vide to us also then everybody so enthu.Start singing along with the music but most clearly is "Photosynthesis" n "Photosynthesize" hahas^^ Finally last period;Mother Tongue.Faster finish up my composition then teacher start talking about the lastest news.After school already but still cannot go home.We went to Mr Ben office and celebrate Dexter's Birthday and we made the whole celebration damn fun hahas.But after eating the cake and drink,me and sihui have to go for ACES as we're already late so we need to rush fast fast. ACES teaching History today then was like no mood to listen to the lesson as I'm messaging friend..Opps! =x Hahas. Today was so bored then went to 'This Fashion' with SiHui at Hougang Point.Bought a top and a shorts and it's quite nice too...Ya that's all for today!I need to go get a rest and message my friend...(:Recap.
Monday, August 17, 2009 | 5:28 PM | 0 comments
Saturday; Cousin's WeddingTonight is my cousin's wedding and mom went to the salon to style her hair.After bathing,let my hair dry on it's own then start changing,style my hair and do simple makeup.After mom came back home,she start changing and we go down to the void deck and dad came to pick us up and then went to fetch my grandparents too.We reach the place at around 8pm and the whole wedding takes about 2 hour only.After that,went down to first floor and shake hand with the bride and groom then go home already.Was really knock down when reached home.Finally this day ended.
Sunday; Mom's Birthday
Today was mom's birthday!Happy Birthday to my Beloved Mum.All my mum's friend actually help to organise a party at the RC as alot of them are RC members and that includes my mum.All the uncle and aunties were friendly and funny at the same time.Food eh?Hmm....Yea!It's nice okay!Cake was mango and fruits.It was really yuppy yummy tasty.What could be better?They gave alot of wine to my mum but thank goodness that mum is able to take it.I went back home early with my Dad,Big Bro,2nd Bro and his friend.Mum stay behind to sing with her friends and that was a really wonderful celebration with alot of funny jokes all around.
Dry Shoot
Friday, August 14, 2009 | 9:37 PM | 0 comments
Today went to Home Team Academy with my Sec 2 Squad for Dry shoot.Home Team Academy is where the NPAP is held.When reach the classroom at HTA,the bartly secondary school is there already then the sir call us take out our writing material then start writing down about the basics. T.N.F(3 safety rule)T=Treat all gun as if they are loaded
N=Never point the gun on anyone or anything unless you are about to shoot the target
F=Finger off the trigger guard unless you are about to shoot the target
Lean forward and close the non master eye.Unload and show clear.Point 45degree facing down and start loading the bullets again.Stronger leg move to the back and start shooting.8 bullet hole and look into the front side and rear side.Lesson end at 5.30pm then we need to run and march fast to get up to the bus.Next friday have to wear full uniform for the actual shooting.HQ finally given us the badge but not sure is for the Sec 2s anot.Heard from the senior that next year we'll be having m16...YAY~ Yesterday Archery then hit until hand then blue black again...This time more painful then last time.Next week got archery test and shooting test.Must continue to work hard and pass all the test....Ganbatte!
Lower Assembly(To Sec One)
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 | 4:32 PM | 0 comments
This morning after recess is Lower Assembly then only Sec 1s need to go to the Hall 2 and 2BC people and me need to be present there also.First the assembly talk about Arts first then Mr Ben start to talk about Mount Kinabalu Trip and show people the pictures we took at Mount Kinabalu.When I go to the front and talk,I realise that my leg and hand was shaking terribly but from far,they wont be able to see.When I try to stand straight,my leg shake even faster but I cannot relax too.After finishing talking,everybody starts to clap and that even make me more nervous.Mr Ben say that this week is just give the speech to Sec 1s but next week wednesday,I need to talk to the Sec 2s and that to me was such a big challenge.Alot Sec 1s dunno me and I'm already so nervous.Sec 2s got so many of my friend then I'll surely get more nervous.What should I do?If I dont come on wednesday,I wont be able to go for hairstyling also because hairstyling is on the wednesday too so I couldnt miss it...I must find a way to overcome my fear just like how I overcome my fear when last time I was doing the DJ Spin Master Competition during recess time and infront of the whole crowd...