Today is last day of exam so I'm finally free but there's another thing bothering me now. Jealousy can cause so many things to happen. From a good relationship into a breakup. I know what all of you are thinking that did I broke up with my boyfriend? Answer is NO cause we still love each other though the way is getting tougher and tougher but that's what I call "No Pain, No Gain". Sometimes the PAIN is just too hurting that it brings tears out. Matthew and Jasper came to my school today then we went to Central's MacDonald. Jasper had his meal while the both of us just sits there. Matthew keep giving me black face and what did I do wrong? I only play basketball with the others. Sometimes is being friendly a offence? Everytime I'm being friendly to others, Matthew will just get angry with me. I just dont want his friends to think that I'm so unfriendly or etc and that's why I try to be friend with them. Whats wrong with that? Im feeling so miserable inside my heart. I dont want to give up because this is just another part of growing up. I still love him but can he feel it? I'm feeling tired already. Sometimes, I just try to free myself from all the troubles so Matthew and I wont drift apart. Today 5am, he message me sorry and hope we wont be cold to each other. I talked to him and even try to cheer him but he like somehow ignore me. Im trying to control my emotions, my tears from flowing out till the end of my face and drip. Tears is made up of 99% of FEELING and 1% of WATER. Tears isnt easy flow out for me. Only things that are VERY VERY HURTING would make me tear. I'm still controlling, controlling the tears. I dont know when I couldnt hold back anymore and let out a big cry. By then, who is there to lend me the shoulder? The listening ear? All I want now is just your understanding that I'm not flirting. I'm just being friendly to your friend cause I dont wish to embarass you. You are everything to me yet you still dont know. Why is this so? You are the only guy that made me cry so much for you. Only you! Do you know why? Because I love you alot but you just doesnt seem to care. Do you know I feel so stress? I dont think I can control my tears anymore. This point of time when I'm blogging, my tears is trying to force itself to come out. Please please... If there's a angel out there that can hear me, I really wish such thing never happens again. I just cant take it anymore. My heart is feeling so heavy and sometimes, it even hurts as though it got stabbed. I hope all problems would just stop now and Matthew would still be like how he was, being happy. I'm so sorry if I did something that you arent happy. 对不起):

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Today is last day of exam so I'm finally free but there's another thing bothering me now. Jealousy can cause so many things to happen. From a good relationship into a breakup. I know what all of you are thinking that did I broke up with my boyfriend? Answer is NO cause we still love each other though the way is getting tougher and tougher but that's what I call "No Pain, No Gain". Sometimes the PAIN is just too hurting that it brings tears out. Matthew and Jasper came to my school today then we went to Central's MacDonald. Jasper had his meal while the both of us just sits there. Matthew keep giving me black face and what did I do wrong? I only play basketball with the others. Sometimes is being friendly a offence? Everytime I'm being friendly to others, Matthew will just get angry with me. I just dont want his friends to think that I'm so unfriendly or etc and that's why I try to be friend with them. Whats wrong with that? Im feeling so miserable inside my heart. I dont want to give up because this is just another part of growing up. I still love him but can he feel it? I'm feeling tired already. Sometimes, I just try to free myself from all the troubles so Matthew and I wont drift apart. Today 5am, he message me sorry and hope we wont be cold to each other. I talked to him and even try to cheer him but he like somehow ignore me. Im trying to control my emotions, my tears from flowing out till the end of my face and drip. Tears is made up of 99% of FEELING and 1% of WATER. Tears isnt easy flow out for me. Only things that are VERY VERY HURTING would make me tear. I'm still controlling, controlling the tears. I dont know when I couldnt hold back anymore and let out a big cry. By then, who is there to lend me the shoulder? The listening ear? All I want now is just your understanding that I'm not flirting. I'm just being friendly to your friend cause I dont wish to embarass you. You are everything to me yet you still dont know. Why is this so? You are the only guy that made me cry so much for you. Only you! Do you know why? Because I love you alot but you just doesnt seem to care. Do you know I feel so stress? I dont think I can control my tears anymore. This point of time when I'm blogging, my tears is trying to force itself to come out. Please please... If there's a angel out there that can hear me, I really wish such thing never happens again. I just cant take it anymore. My heart is feeling so heavy and sometimes, it even hurts as though it got stabbed. I hope all problems would just stop now and Matthew would still be like how he was, being happy. I'm so sorry if I did something that you arent happy. 对不起):

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