Today I found my old notebook and found many things. One of the page is about a day on 24 Feb 10. I shall post it out(: Ohya and something I wrote.

Today, 24 Feb 2010, I suddenly had a feeling of afraid to lose Matthew. Is it because the feeling of love is growing and that's why I am afraid of losing him? Vomitted during NPAP training but didnt report sick and continue doing training till dismissal. Suddenly, I had another thinking of quitting NPAP but I change my thinking eventually. Hope nobody would tell Matthew that I vomitted today. I think he will be very worried for me. After NPAP, went to meet Matthew as he is going to train with his friends again. Am I loving him 100% or I dont seem to trust him? Everytime, I thought of the past that Amir betray me because of other girl, Im afraid that the history would repeat itself and I reject my suitors. Matthew is different so I feel that I could trust him very much but Im still afraid that history would repeat. What would happen to me if one day, Matthew did something like this? We havent really got steady yet so he can still change his heart anythinq or anytime. If I could wish upon a star, I would wish that me and Matthew would be together forever and ever. I simply just love him too much. Im really afraid of losing my love one. I would do anythinq for him. There's nobody else in my life could make me feel like this anymore except him.

Love is not simply a word for writing
It's a type of word for expressing
Writing on paper when the word could be erased
Craving on stone when the stone would break
The best way to epress your feelings is to
say 'I LOVE YOU' face to face
Though it might be difficult, but you have proven
that you love him/her very much
Forgive the mistake, Forget the past
Remember the future ahead of us

Just hope that everything goes smoothly
Though there's no smooth sailing in life
Dont trust 100% in eternity
It would led you to minute of HAPPINESS
But eternity of MISERY and PREASURE
Be yourself Be truthful

If you cant accept me at my worst;
You dont deserve me at my best


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Today I found my old notebook and found many things. One of the page is about a day on 24 Feb 10. I shall post it out(: Ohya and something I wrote.

Today, 24 Feb 2010, I suddenly had a feeling of afraid to lose Matthew. Is it because the feeling of love is growing and that's why I am afraid of losing him? Vomitted during NPAP training but didnt report sick and continue doing training till dismissal. Suddenly, I had another thinking of quitting NPAP but I change my thinking eventually. Hope nobody would tell Matthew that I vomitted today. I think he will be very worried for me. After NPAP, went to meet Matthew as he is going to train with his friends again. Am I loving him 100% or I dont seem to trust him? Everytime, I thought of the past that Amir betray me because of other girl, Im afraid that the history would repeat itself and I reject my suitors. Matthew is different so I feel that I could trust him very much but Im still afraid that history would repeat. What would happen to me if one day, Matthew did something like this? We havent really got steady yet so he can still change his heart anythinq or anytime. If I could wish upon a star, I would wish that me and Matthew would be together forever and ever. I simply just love him too much. Im really afraid of losing my love one. I would do anythinq for him. There's nobody else in my life could make me feel like this anymore except him.

Love is not simply a word for writing
It's a type of word for expressing
Writing on paper when the word could be erased
Craving on stone when the stone would break
The best way to epress your feelings is to
say 'I LOVE YOU' face to face
Though it might be difficult, but you have proven
that you love him/her very much
Forgive the mistake, Forget the past
Remember the future ahead of us

Just hope that everything goes smoothly
Though there's no smooth sailing in life
Dont trust 100% in eternity
It would led you to minute of HAPPINESS
But eternity of MISERY and PREASURE
Be yourself Be truthful

If you cant accept me at my worst;
You dont deserve me at my best


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