1503'10 Funeral
Monday, March 15, 2010 | 9:52 PM | 0 comments
Today is the 4th day that Popo A.K.A God Grandma, has passed away. I didnt get a chance to see her as I got camp when she died. When I got the news from my mum, I was so sad that I burst into tears after I take out my phone right after NPAP. Some people saw me crying so they left me alone. I couldnt control my tears, my emotion at that point of time. I suddenly get the pain in my heart. Like something stab into it and it is really deep. During the camp, I try to put the thinking aside as I dont wish to affect anybody in the camp. Yesterday night, I went to pray at the funeral but went home early. Today, I finally get to see Popo's face already. Her face and her eyes were so swollen. She was so different from her usual self. She was sick from coughing before she pass away. I nearly burst into tears infront of everybody when I saw her face. I controlled my tears and went home straight and give a excuse that I have to prepare my Full U for tomorrow's lecture. Actually, I came back home and had a crying session. Saifuddin Sir tried to cheer me up after knowing the truth. Thanks and I believe I will cheer up soon. I feel so empty and lonely. Everytime I see Popo, she is always smiling, laughing and so friendly to everybody. Why does she deserve death at such a early stage ?! Why is it so unfair that she has to face death now ?! Even though this is a life cycle where everybody will pass away in the future, why is she the one that goes now ? I miss her alot. I miss her laughter, her voice and her face. How I wish she was alive now and smile to me again. I know this will never come true again. Now I hope she can go peacefully. Goodbye):